Hello.

It's a late post for me. I didn't really feel like posting earlier today.

I'm coming to realize I'm going through a depressive period right now. My moods are all over the place but mostly down. The S.O. said that she knows something is going on with me. I don't know what she meant by that(she was pissed at me at the time), but I've realized that I have been kind of shut off. I tend to close up and just withdraw. I guess that can come across in different ways. I don't mean anything by it, and generally, I don't realize I'm doing it.

I suppose what I need to do is just tell her that I'm feeling shitty right now so she doesn't think I'm having an affair or something. She tends to think the worst. You'd think she could read me better by now.

An affair. That's a good one. First of all, I can't imagine anyone being attracted to me right now. Second, as exciting as being with a new person and all the sex might be, I can't see it would be worth the effort. I don't have the time or energy to cheat. Hell, I barely make it through the day as it is expending as little energy as I do. When would I have any fun? In the 20 minutes it takes me to get home? While I'm supposed to be working? Hell, I might as well have a tracking device and camera on me, my every minute is accounted for.

No, it's just me being me. Slipping into a funk when I should be enjoying this time of year. I always have these episodes at the most inopportune times. Hell, I was depressed on my honeymoon to my second wife. Talk about a buzzkill. I only made it through the week by drinking constantly. There's a plan.

I realize this post doesn't have the fun and interesting aspects of my usual entries(yeah, right) but such is life. At least I picked a sexy picture of Miss Jolie for you to gaze at lustily.

Peace.